It really feels like you are in a constant battle with yourself. I find myself repeating certain behaviours over and over and over – even though I know it’s unnecessary. But I still can’t stop. There is the person who you really are, and the part of your personality that is ill and constantly dictating what you should do. The worst is when it seems to come on for no reason and you don’t even realise that what’s happening is anxiety.
Last week my anxiety defeated me and made me a bit (ok, VERY) irrational but writing this is my way of taking back control. It is temporary, and I have accepted that & I’ll bounce back because I always do.